I am simply an individuated unit of consciousness, (IUOC, from the book My Big TOE), who has resided on this planet for 46 years in the female form … LOL. Seriously, I am a 46yr old female, who is (gasp-out-loud) single, never married, without biological children, living in a beautifully quaint area in Tennessee. A veteran of the United States Air Force, lifetime warrior of peace, eldest sister to 7 siblings, real world, real talk kind of gal.
Like you, I was born with unconditional love as a foundation of my spirit/soul/body experience. All we do as infants is be. We are universal unconditional love… As newborns we give unconditional love, we receive it, it is the entire existence of our being; while yes, there is some eating, pooping, playing and the like, but really, the existence of our being is infectious smiles, googles, stupid faces and belly farts (also known as yummy, tummy time). Realizing that unconditional love was my starting “state of being”, I was forced to look at life as a progression of experiences, and I realized that our entire adult lives, we strive to find that… to return to that unconditional love again. It is just really unfortunate that most of us settle for less than unconditional love, because we don’t feel worthy of the real thing.
“Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.”
Lao Tzu
….Why “The Good Kind of Crazy” you ask??? ….
First off, I decided to define the words “good” and “crazy”. Since there are a few different definitions of both words, I chose the definitions that closest relates to what I mean. Good, according to Merriam-Webster states that good means, “of a favorable character or tendency”. Crazy is a state of being “out of the ordinary or not mentally sound: marked by thought or action that lacks reason”.
I empathize with these specific meanings of these words simply because after I was put through hell in a hand basket (several times) in my short 46-year existence, one would think that PTSD, chaos, fear, and anger would rule my character, but the opposite is where I live. Because of my traumas, I have found freedom and peace; I live heaven on earth. I have no “reason” to be hateful or angry; however, after learning about my life’s experiences, people expect me to be all of those negative things. People are amazed at how I used those experiences to find freedom instead of slavery, slavery to negative emotions about my experiences.
“Knowing others is intelligence;
Lao Tzu, Tao Te Ching
knowing yourself is true wisdom.
Mastering others is strength;
mastering yourself is true power.”
So, The Good Kind of Crazy is the name of my upcoming book. The good kind of crazy because after going through what I went through, I live my life in complete truth; regardless of what others think. I do not, will not apologize (unless I am incorrect, but I will never apologize because of how others feel about my life), I am not sorry, and I don’t take anything I have ever said or done back. “It” was what it was, when it was that thing it was, and now it is what it is. I am free from judgement (free from judgement of myself, so definitely free from the judgment of others) so, “IT’S” all good, and people think that my attitude is CRAZY. They think that I should be mad, instead of joy-filled about my experiences; well, I am unconditional love, so anger is not me. I can teach you what I have learned, that allows me to remain peaceful.
“Simplicity, patience, compassion.
Lao Tzu, Tao Te Ching
These three are your greatest treasures.
Simple in actions and thoughts, you return to the source of being.
Patient with both friends and enemies,
you accord with the way things are.
Compassionate toward yourself,
you reconcile all beings in the world.”
After being misdiagnosed as bipolar and suffering the consequences of being mislabeled, suffering from sexual assault, being held hostage on American soil, I can say that I have been put through the ringer so that I could come out the other side and help those who have been through, are going through similar situations. I have become a life-coach, mentor, cheerleader, advocate for those who are looking to heal themselves from past traumas. There are no get better quick schemes, you must go through the healing since you have already been through the traumas. I cannot tell you how to heal yourself, I can only tell you how I healed me.
The Parable of the Sower – The Bible
Bible, Matthew 13:1-9
Matthew 13 That same day Jesus went out of the house and sat by the lake. 2 Such large crowds gathered around him that he got into a boat and sat in it, while all the people stood on the shore. 3 Then he told them many things in parables, saying: “A farmer went out to sow his seed. 4 As he was scattering the seed, some fell along the path, and the birds came and ate it up. 5 Some fell on rocky places, where it did not have much soil. It sprang up quickly, because the soil was shallow. 6 But when the sun came up, the plants were scorched, and they withered because they had no root. 7 Other seed fell among thorns, which grew up and choked the plants. 8 Still other seed fell on good soil, where it produced a crop—a hundred, sixty or thirty times what was sown. 9 Whoever has ears, let them hear.”
“As above, so below” … I live heaven on earth because I have joy in my heart and have learned how to live unbothered by others negativity. Gods unconditional love flows through me into everything I see and do. I cannot get out of synchronicity; I cannot get out of “Gods’ Grace”.